hafizah meor osman

dear fiza,
to meet u is to maturing myself.
to know u is to advising myself.
to have u is to loving myself.

dear fiza,
i never thought knowing u will helps me growing.
i never thought meeting u will teaches me patience.
i never thought having u will makes me appreciate myself more.

dear fiza,
i may be not good enough compared to ur kindness.
i may be not a perfect friend enough as u be mine.
i may not be kind enough to be ur good friend.

dear fiza,
thank u for listening to me whining.
thank u for care for me when im down.
thank u for easily amuse me.
thank u for always be there for me.

dear fiza,
hope to dive with u in our ups and downs.
hope to grab each others' back everytime we stumble.
hope to dance with u everytime im listening to music of life.

friends are forever as i never throw them no matter good or bad they are
xoxo
 

selamat hari raya, everyone

currently im listening to suasana hari raya by anuar and ellina.

ermm..in other 2 days will be the very riangria day for all the muslims. but does we really appreciate it? or at least we know why are we celebrating hari raya?

hari raya? duit raya? bunga raya? visiting relatives and friends? eat kuih raya? sembahyang raya? baju raya? kasut raya?

yes..every year we celebrate hari raya with new clothes, new everything..its like a GREENLIGHT for us to buy everything we want "for the sake of hari raya"..

and i dont know wtf am i crapping here...its just my hari raya now is not the same as my hari raya when i was young-er...on that time, families are around you but today, families like millions miles away (eventhough u're living on the same block)..and peoples are busy with their lives..im not blaming life but we have to agree that each lifestyles change the way we are..

so, enjoy this hari raya to the fullest and put family first..


SELAMAT HARI RAYA
MAAF ZAHIR BATIN TO ALL OF U

she called me and apologised

this post is bout her again, the girl that i mentioned in my previous posts.

she called me this very morning and apologised for all those mess..
apologized accepted..
means, case closed?
but if i hear my name again, there's no second chance..


p/s : i dont really like to kutuk2, gado, or musuh2. luckily im a cool person

am i? ;P

happy 51st birthday malaysia

MERDEKA!
m-e-r-d-e-k-a...does anyone of us really understand the meaning? either myself. for me merdeka is when i go out celebrate-partying the eve-night anywhere with friends, saying merdeka to each other, go home at the early morning and sleep like a pig (cos its holiday). i dont really bother when, why, how, what is merdeka! maybe because im living in a modern-tech world. hey! please dont misunderstand what im trying to say here. dont tell me that u're so patriotisms and say "bloody shit this girl know nothing bout merdeka!". say whatever u like but i bet u dont really know what is merdeka too. youths love to party so do i. that is the only reason why there are so many events and parties on merdeka eve. as i grow up, slowly i can understand that merdeka have a huge meaning actually. so, im trying to appreciate merdeka now. so, how bout u guys? what does u define MERDEKA?

look at them, fight and living uncomfortably for the sake of the country.

when we starting to feel unsafe to live in our country, living in fears, the bombs are everywhere, people killing each other, no mercy, we left out alone, families and friends are leaving us to safe themselves, when we cant trust no one, country taken by others, no food, no drink, no home, no clothes, no freedom, no party...until then, are we realised that all this time we had neglected our country
(although we always said we love malaysia,but what does we contribute?).

adakah masa tu baru kita nak hargai kemerdakaan dan negara malaysia?

as a malaysian, i must say im proud to be one. but are we truly, fully, sincerely proud? at least, i'd never ask myself why am i not an any other citizen?

we're all grown up. think yourselves.
i better stop the craps here.
xoxo

empty + bored = die

bored makes me empty. fullstops.
empty makes me bored. second fullstops.

empty and bored can kills me.
any other way to keeps me alive?

* i need happy pills..anyone?

xoxo

SHEILA! GET OUTTA MY LIFE!

**click here to view the fucking freak bitch
OH MY GOD! that bitch that i've mentioned on the previous post still email me stupid things! i cant believe that she still want to get connected to me even though i had chased her and her gang out before!

here some of the emails ::
u noe wat is ur prob,act u r so jealous wif me dats y la maki2,ckp yg bkn2 n merepek mcm org hilang akal...hmmm...btw my work org pay rm600 p/sesion..1 week plg krg i dpt 2 sesion so for 2day i dpt rm1200x4=4800 for a month x tmsk basic n yg lain2 dear...so x sia2kn i blajar ape u pgl..solek n andam2...hmmm..bestkn keje i..tp i work hard for all dat..i can buy anything if i wantkn..setakat keta mane u tau i xde...?hmm...tula...jgn suke ckp yg bkn2 coz u dont noe nothing bout me..u x layak talkbout my bznss n personel life..x sesuai...toyboy...hmmm,u yg anggap urs toyboy kot not me...hahaha...drpd ur language pun i tau wat kind person r u..my mum sedekah yer...?abis tu ur parents bsrkn u dr kcik smpai besar tu pgl ape...?belas kasihan n ehsan ye...?mcm tu rupenyer....hmmm...mmg educated btl fikiran u kan...pandainyer...hahahahaha...my btque x hebat...?hmmm..tp rezeki i mrh sgt ampai i tpakse tolak cstmer adela...blajarla solek2 n andam tu ant leh i bg job yg tlbh2 ni drpd u x wat papekn..tlg same2 org melayu ape nk kire...btmbh mrh ant rezeki i...ms btque i getting 3yrs i da plgkn blk smua modal my parent for me tau...happy sgt dorg coz im really comited wif my bznss..alhamdulillah..more than 150k..x byk sgt punkn...hmmm..suke sgt mention word kmpgkn,elok sgtla org kmpg tu lg drpd mengaku bndr sgt tp perangai mengalahkn org kmpg..cermin diri tu,tepuk dada tanyer selera...kla,assalamualaikum...

and here i replied ::
FUCK OFF! FUCK OFF! aku jeles kat ko? tolong sket! ko ni kalo aku ckp bodoh, ko suke aku ckp bangang ko bangga plak! wei sial! aku dah tak peduli bahasa aku elok ke tak...ngan ko tak sesuai pakai bahasa elok2 pasal ko tak reti bahasa! WEI POMPAN! aku takde masa nak jeles ngan ko! ape sgt lah yg ko ade aku nak jeles sgt2 tu..butik ko? TAK HERAN!!!! toyboy ko? bukan aku yg gelar macam tu, org lain bagi aku..ko tak mampu beli kete pun sesorg yg bagitau aku..kawan rapat ko lah macam family ko gak lah...mmg lah butik tu sedekah dari mak bapak ko! aku tak cakp yg mak bapak aku bela aku dari kecik sampai besar tu belas ihsan ke atau fucking bullshit yg ko kata ape2 lah...SEBAB AKU TAK BERLAGAK NGAN HARTA MAK BAPAK AKU! sebab pada aku, SETAKAT NAK BERLAGAK NGAN HARTA MAK BAPAK, BAIK TAK PAYAH! n diingatkan lagi yg kalo mak bapak ko tak bagi butik, takde nye ko mampu nak bukak butik ko! sekurang2 aku bangga dapat kumpul harta ngan wit aku sendiri TANPA wit mak bapak aku...watpe mintak mak bapak wit untuk berlagak kat org lain? aku tak nak nnt tak pasal2 ALLAH tarik balik ngan ape yg aku ade sebab berlagak...CUKUPLAH MAK BAPAK AKU DAH BESARKAN AKU, HANTAR AKU BELAJAR U (BUKAN IFTC ) TINGGI2, BELIKAN RUMAH AND TANAH BYK KEPING UNTUK AKU! (aku cuma ckp rumah aku dan beberapa keping tanah tuk aku tak termasuk rumah yg lain2 dan tanah keping yg lain2 tuk adik beradik aku ngan kebun getah yg aku bagi sewa kat org lain...tapi,aku tak berlagak pun ngan harta mak bapak sebab tu wit mak bapak aku sebab tu aku sewakan kat org umah aku supaya ade sumbangan aku kat mak bapak and tanah2 berlambak tu aku tak sentuh langsung..biarlah mak bapak aku ngan harta dia) ADE TAK AKU SEBUT YG AKU MISKIN SAMPAI NAK KENA JELES NGAN KO!!! BODOH! and mak bapak aku pun proud ngan aku sebab tak mengharapkan harta mak bapak tuk idop!

LOOK! aku malas nak lyan ko! KO KENA INGAT AKU TAK DE MASA NAK JELES NGAN KO! AND KO KENA INGAT JUGAK YG KO WAT AKU MARAH SEBAB KO NGN KAWAN2 SEKAMPUNG KO TU MENGUTUK AKU TAK PSAL2!!! TAKDE KENA MENGENA NGAN BUTIK KG KO TU! AKU TAK HERAN LANGSUNG NGAN BUTIK KO! AKU MARAH SEBAB APAHAL LAK KO NGAN GENG SAKAI KO NAK KUTUK2 AKU??? TU PUN TAK PAHAM KE? SEBAB TU AKU CAKAP TAK LAYAK CKP ELOK2 NGAN KO SEBAB KO TAK PAHAM BAHASA! KALO SETAKAT HARTA MAK BAPAK KO TU TAK PAYAH NAK BERLAGAK NGAN AKU! BUTIK KO PUN MAK BAPAK AKU LEH BELI! lagi sekali aku ingat kan ko! nama aku naik lagi sekali lepas ni,KO SIAP! lagi satu, tak payah suh geng kampung ko view profile aku and tak payah terhegeh2 nak suh am add aku nak korek2 cite dari aku! aku bukan bodo! PERGI MAMPUS NGAN KO PUNYE SOLEK2 ANDAM2...solek2 andam2 tak payah gi belajar tgi setakat gi kursus pun boleh...tapi ko leh ke wat plan bangunan, pelan landskap, belajar reka bangunan macam yg aku wat? TAK HERAN! MURAHAN! and ko takde hak langsung nak kutuk aku atau nak kaitkan nama my beloved hubby (BUKAN TOYBOY) kalo hubby aku sendiri yg cari ko baru ko tau! AND HUBBY AKU KERJA, SO TAK PAYAH LAH AKU SUSAH2 NAK BAGI WIT KAT DIA!! LAGIPUN HUBBY AKU BUKANNYA MUDA DARI AKU YANG LEH WAT ADIK! ermmm../ooppps! sebelum ko kutuk aku atau berlagak ngan harta mak bapak ko tu, ko check dulu apsal aku marah sgt kat ko ngan geng kampung ko tu! lagi satu, pasal butik ko tu aku TEKANKAN KAT SINI YANG AKU TAK HERAN LANGSUNG!

aku tak merepek tapi ko sendiri yang dah ilang akal! mak aku pesan, jgn layan ko sebab mak aku ckp.... :"adik, kalo kita layan org gile, nanti kite pun jadi gile jugak..mama bangga ngan adik sebab leh idop atas kaki sendiri tak mintak tolong mama pun..biarkan dia nak berlagak ngan harta mak bapak dia sebab mama tak ajar anak mama mendongak langit...lagi satu, adik ckp dulu yg dia kutuk adik sebab tu adik marah sangat nape lak nak kuar pasal harta mak bapak dia tu?"

"ntahlah mama...dah gile agaknye dia...sebab dia tak belajar tgi lah tak paham bahasa...dia tak tau beza kutuk ngan jeles ke berlagak harta mak bapak...susahlah mama ckp ngan org gile..sebab org gile tak paham bahasa"

sekian, terima kasih...oooh! semalam aku ade terima mesej dari sesorg..ade gak dia bagitau aku benda yg aku tak berapa suke nak dgr tapi disebabkan ko cari pasal, aku terpaksa lah simpan mesej tu...SELAMAT BERJAYA NGAN BUTIK KO YG SIKIT PUN AKU TAK HERAN! okielah KAK ILA (as u want everyone to call u kakak - so k&%$*@g style), silalah pergi mampus dan jgn kaco idup aku lagi!!!!!

well, read all those bullshits? errmm...there are a lots more in my email inbox. i really cant handle that bitch yet wondering why on earth she annoyed me? sometimes i thank God that i really live in a happy and wonderful life so that there some people want to bother my life..ermm..as for the bitch and gangs, go to hell or else u can go to the nearest toilets and flash yourselves so that u'll disappeared in my great life..F88K OFF lah if u said that i so jealous with ur boutiques...what? is that a branded boutique? is that your own clothes-line boutique? damn too far away from that..its just an ordinary rural bridal boutique..sigh! ~ is that im jealous bout? u can talk to my hands!

xOXo

are u a gym dropout?

Motivation and determination. Should be firmly in place the moment you decide to put yourselves in any gymnasiums. Why people stay away from gyms (including me)? It is tiring and stressful as they have to rush in to a gym when all they want to do is go home and lie down (believe me, lie down is the great therapy). Time is also another problem. No time for that, no time for this but seriously people seems to have time to party? (party hard). Yoga? yes, yoga is more convenience than go to gym (as yoga can be practic anywhere). Some people join the gym because their friends are doing it (and in their mind, it is the HAPPENING thing to do). If losing weight is the main reason, maybe there are other ways that you can achieve you target.

In article published in Times Online, there are few tips on how to achieve that without without spending any money (gym fees are way to expensive aite?)
* clean the bathtub - 4 calories a minute
* play the air guitar - 3.5 calories a minute
* rake the lawn - 6 calories a minute
* play hopscotch - 7.5 calories a minute
* singing to your fave CD while standing up - 3 calories a minute
* push supermarket trolleys at once when shopping - 8 calories a minute
* decorate a room - 7 calories a minute
* paint balling - 8 calories a minute
* carry a toddler around a shop - 9 calories a minute
* perform jumping jack while watching TV - 11 calories a minute


so, good luck people


xOXo

my best cousin wedding

newly wed~siti salwah bt ahmad kadri and mohd azhar b abu bakar were officially tied the knot on 29 march 2008 (sorry for the late post here) but at least i did..lets just call her cawax or wawa (what? another wawa? *sigh)

this is the invitation card (below)

here comes the bride and the groom (below)

okie, thats all folks!

SELAMAT PENGANTIN BARU

xOXo

sleepless cause me panda eyes

03.50am .
i dont know what am i doing at this hour in front of this 17" monitor...all i know that i don't (can't actually) sleep well these few days and still figuring it out what/why is it..
things running like a marathon in my head..yes! i am facing lot of problems lately (keep it safe with me) and yet, i know that if i don't solve each of those problems, it will become worst..yes! im still trying my best to settle it down slowly..

and the most important is my eyes..my eyes are like panda eyes..really cant help it..and i was so freaking when i noticed it...its so obvious and really cant hide with make up..it looks like i've been punched or kicked on the eyes..and i am wondering how am i going out afterward? with these panda eyes? its the worst panda eyes i've ever get..

how am going to bed cos i know that i will rolling on the bed till morning..yawn! +O ...ermm, the best way to keep me sleep like a baby is with one or two or three (four/five also can) of the sleeping pills...unfortunately, i have none of those pills..so, i better go into my room and roll(rolling) on all over my bed..my eyes cant stand the brightness of this monitor (really cant read what is writing on this monitor, actually) this brightness make my eyes even more sleepy and tired...

i better stop here and till the next post..

xOXO

money can buy love?

"money can buy love? but surely NOT FOR ME..obviously its u! yeah! eventhough we are rich, money still cant buy TRUE ENDLESS LOVE..for me,my money isnt for buy love~"

how do i start this...ermm..im (overwhelmed) pissed off with these bunch of "minahs kajang" that seriously annoyed me...these happened several weeks ago..

and the story starts here...
a few weeks ago, added her up in my frenlist (one of my social network) then, she commented me back by saying "mcam kenal ek..katne ek" i replied, "kenal? katne?" but i have no idea that one of my guy fren in my photo albums there is her bf! nway, those pictures was taken 2 years ago with me+hubby and her bf+his another gf..so, she and her frens accused me ruining her life..such a muthafucka...i dont even know them and i dont know that she is my guy-fren-in-the-picture's gf...GET IT? and accidentally there was a guy added me (like i dont know that he is one of her friend that she might hired to dig the whole story) she's such a bitch! and her fren overwhelming talk rubbish about me..so,i replied back...the story still going unfinished..

after a few argument, i signed in YM and suddenly i was shocked to see that u still (do) YM me?? what the heck are u doing? and what was i read just now? u said :i tak tau ape2 pasal u and diorg..asal ade name i plak! asal itu..asal ini.. then i said : F**K! hello, listen here! if u really know nothing then, why bother to (accidentally?) add me? ~ with no friends in common, or any link, u manage to find me in ms,fb and all...how would it be?

1st-WE DONT HAVE ANY FRENS IN COMMON AT ALL BEFORE.
2nd- I KNOW THAT U FOUND ME BY SEARCHING MY NAME
3rd- WHY ON EARTH U KEEP SAYING THAT : I JUST WANNA BE FREN..I TAK TAU PAPE PASAL U NGAN DIORG ~ (like i care) BUT AT THE SAME TIME, U KEEP ASKING ME ABOUT MY SHOUT OUT AND MY COMMENTS TO THEM (nape tak tye ape komen i kat org lain except diorg..i byk gak bg komen kat org lain)
4th- U KEEP ASKING ME WHAT THE HECK IS GOING ON BETWEEN ME AND THEM.. so, tell me..is that all just a coincidence or purposely happened?



so, here some words for u, bitches
untuk am,sheila, ena, nurul, sabrina dan kawan² sekampungnye..leh tak korg kuar dari idop aku!! aku takde kena-megena ngan BF ko! yg bermadu ngan ko bukan aku tapi bestfren aku..lagipun sukeati diorg tu lah nak bermadu ke ape ke...bukan urusan korg dan aku! so,mind ur own business!! and korg settle lah masalah korg sendiri..tapi yg buat aku bengang pasal korg tak pepasal nak kutuk aku pahal? aku ke yg madu ngan ena tu? aku rasa, ada sebab nape BF ko menduakan ko cume ko je yang tak sedar diri and tak tau2 lagi...and tk payah percaya lah ckp bf ko sebab dah mmg ternyata dia tu penipu..ngan aku dan madu ko kat sini, bf ko kutuk ko gile2 ko je tak tau...and tak mustahil bf ko kutuk aku dan madu ko gile2 kat ko plak...wei, lagi 1 aku nak ingatkan, tak payah nk perasan bagus sgt padahal hakikatnye ko tu tak hebat pun..and padan lah muka ko kena madu! hahahahhahahah...and yang pasti madu ko disini telah dapat segala2nya...tggllah sepahnye tuk ko..and ur bf tu tak sehebat mane pun..and madu ko kat sini tau luar dlm pasal ko dan bf ko...and bf ko cume tggl sepah nye sahaja!! amiklah sepah yang dah tggl sampah tu! jadi, jangan nak sebuk2 suh satu kg ko view aku dan konon2 add aku nak tahu cerita..aku takde masa nak lyn FAKE frens macam tu! learn from ur own mistake, jgn serkap jarang nak blame org lain yg takde kena mengena semata2 gambar bf ko ngan madu ko ade dlm profile aku!! lagipun, bagus gak benda2 mcm ni terjadi..ade hikmah..and lagi 1,AVRIL is coming to town, MESTI KO NGAN KAWAN2 SEKAMPUNG KO PERGI NGAN TIX YG PALING MAHAL KAN? hahahahahahah...no class! jadi, jgn lah menjadikan aku sebagai tempat ko nak lepaskan segala ketidakpuashatian ko tu! ko ingat kitorg kat sini tak tau ke ape2 pasal ko? dulu lagi kitorg dah tau tapi kitorg tak kecoh pun mcm ko! pasal buruk baik ko pun kitorg tau..ape yg dia suke dan tak suke pasal ko pun kitorg tau, so jgn mengada2 nak point ur fingers to US! BEFORE U POINT UR FINGERS TO US, MAKE SURE YOUR FINGERS ARE EXTREMELY CLEAN!!

oh yeah! here she is...
u can click-on to see her
by the way, your bf is the one who keep looking for my bestfren..so, i suggest that u better tied him tightly...


xOXo