life aint easy

what and where should i start?

these past few weeks/months are the most struggle weeks/months of all.

lotsa things had happened to me continuously. neither bad or good.

and the emotions also take part and make things more miserable and perfect enough for me.

then come the lack of professionalism by a particular person.

but the joyous are still there in each single days.

my life wouldn't be complete without laughter, smiles and dont forget the tears.

okie okie..stop the craps.

Chapter 1 
seriously,i cant stand dramas,stalkers and pretenders.

so, please dont pretend to be nice with me today and spit on me face tomorrow. WTF!

im not looking for a friend or anybody like that. its better for me to have none.

we are all grown up (in fact, u're much much older than me) but why we still cant use our tiny brain?

in order to make people love u, care for u, respect u, u should love,care and respect yourself and others too.

i might not be the appropriate person to talk to u bout life but i believe each of us have own experiences .

no matter what the differences experiences we had face, it still helps us to be more mature aite?

i dont think u have much friends in real (except your maya friends).

i also know that u're faking ur life everyday. (look at yourself!!).

i've been nice with u and i never expect that u could do this to me.

i lost my respect onto u.

i also lost my trust in u.

not only me, every bodies feel exact the same.

so, i guess i should stop being so nice with u.

i know im bit nasty and loud after what you've done to me.
im maybe loud but im proud that i am what i am that im not similar to u.

im aware that i shouldnt do that since u dont know how to differentiate between personal and business and u also have the power that u always claim u have and capable to do anything to me that could affects my future.

but,seriously i cant stand it anymore.

u are so damn sarcastic that no one can take it.

they and i are supposedly look up to u,respect u but we're not yet we're afraid.

its u that turn us to treat u this way.

yes, its u! speaks to others and u'll get the same answer.

no one's perfect, i know but they are practicing cos practice make perfect. 

but u?? cakap tak serupa bikin.

stop the lame, fake, stupid dramas, drama queen!

tolong jangan gedik! ko lebih tua dan sebab ko kan nak sgt org respect ko!

paku dulang paku serpih,

cakap orang, ko yang lebih.

keep in your mind that dont ever think that we donno what we supposed to know!

people have eyes, ears, brain and feeling too!

Chapter 2 
i've been snatched bout a month ago. (exactly 2months after i bought that bag)

right here at neighborhood area witnessed by few people but none of them are willing to help me.

my favorite bag putus, ok!

and my b already sent it back to the boutique as i asked and i hope they can fix it.

but they are not sure yet.

and i totally dont care if the bag dah cacat pun i still want to use it!

because  it is purple in color,y'all!!

Chapter 3
 i need a break.

i need a vacation.

i need a holliday.

i need have to get off of here.

i need have to release the tense.

i need have to be away from here.

i need have to be anywhere else but here.

just me and myself. no one else. (but not u)

do u hear me?? get me out from here.

seroiusly these tenses have make me crazy, unthinkable, irrational, less kind at heart!

xOxO