friends that not worth it

friends,
nape banyak sangat fake friends sekarang ni?
nape tak berusaha menjadi diri sendiri?

i have a friend.
dia dulu hodoh,miskin dan tinggal di kampung.
bile besar sikit dapat lah sambung study kat bandar.
belajar dan belajar dan belajar.
ntah macam mane, dia seperti culture shock.
dulu tak tau itu ini, sekarang dah tau itu dan ini.
tak kisah lah tu.
tapi kenapa perlu berlagak?
aku sudah merasa itu semua tapi tak payah show off.
mungkin nak bagi 1 dunia tau kot yang dia baru nak kenal dunia?
ish,aku malu tapi lantak dia lah.

 i have a friend.
dia dulu budak baik.
dia dulu tak reti pun nak marah² orang.
sekarang sejak² dah pandai itu ini,
dia dah mula dah pandai menjadi seorang yang sarcastic.
dah pandai dah nak tunjuk belang.
kenapa perlu begitu?
ish,aku tak suke tapi lantak dia lah.

i have a friend.
dia dulu bukan budak kampung.
sekarang dah tinggal kat bandar besar sikit dari dulu.
dia agak tua dari aku tapi berperangai seperti muda dari aku.
mugkin dia dulu tak cantik kot.
mugkin dia dulu takde ramai orang crush kot.
mungkin dia dulu tak pernah bercinta ngan orang² yang tidak sakai atau tidak seperti rempit atau jelong.
sekarang baru nak tergila² meroyan memarketkan diri.
apakah ini semua?
please lah..aku dah melalui itu semua.
so, tak payah bangga diri bercerita ngan aku.
dari suke nak dengar aku kini meluat.
aku menyampah tapi lantak dia lah.

i have a friend.
dia bukan budak kampung.
BFF forever ikrarnye,ikrarku.
dia baik ngan aku. dia selalu bersamaku.
tapi kadang² annoying jugak padaku.
dia suke ape aku suke.
dia mahu ape aku mahu.
rupenye stalker si dia itu.
takde identiti sendiri
malah melaungkan kata² konon²nya aku pulak yang tiru dia.
aku benci tapi lantaklah.

i have a friend.
kesana kesini bersama-sama.
sms,calls tak putus², begitu jua social networks.
dia baik gile ngan aku.
semua aku ckp,setuju jer.
aku tak pernah salah pada dia. ish,da macam idola dia la.
tapi sungguh tak kusangka dia begitu.
depan baik,belakang aku kutuk aku kaw².
mengapakah berperangai seperti itu.
takde kawan macam ni puntak pe kot.
aku benci gile tapi lantak ah dia.

i have a friend.
dia sangat baik.
naik suara pun susah.
orang mintak tolong mesti akan dibantunya sedaya upaya.
tapi kerna sangat baik,dia seperti dipijak orang.
aku suke dia.
tapi sampai bila dia mampu bertahan?
ish,aku suke tapi lantak dia lah.

i have a friend.
dia sebaya aku.
dia tinggal di bandar.
dan dah melalui pahit manis idop walaupun masih sgt muda.
dia tetap menjadi diri dia.
dia tak pernah peduli orang sekeliling mengata dia.
kalaupun ade yang meluat dan menyampah,dia tak heran pun.
dia mungkin jahat, liar, dan terbuka.
dia jua sangat ikhlas tak kira sesiapa dia kawan.
aku suke dia begitu.
walaupun jahat,tak perlu cover jadi baik.
aku suke tapi lantak dia lah.


 *kamu?  kamu kategori yang mane pulak?

seseorang pernah berkata padaku :

seseorang itu : u,cuba hidup berdikari tanpa kawan.
aku yang naive : hish,hidop ini kan bersama-sama. kenalah berteman.
seseorang itu : janganlah bergantung pada kawan. idop sendiri.
aku yang naive : i tak leh idop takde kawan

seseorang itu di hari yang lain : itu lah u..terlalu bagi muka kat orang. terlalu baik ngan orang.
aku yang naive di hari yang lain : ish,dah i macam ni..nak wat camne?
seseorang itu di hari yang lain : baguslah,orang pijak kepala. baik lah lagi ngan orang.
aku yang naive di hari yang lain : ...... terdiam dan berkata dalam hati (tak kan nak jadi jahat pulak).

baik salah, jahat lagi lah salah.

xOxO

play and just dance

just dance.

play the music of life and just dance.

the music will never stop.

no matter how much u love or hate the song, the music of life will play continuously.

u cant press the pause,forward or backward button.

there are no button to press.

just dance while the music play.

either the music play high or low,u can do nothing.

just dance and make it interesting.

make it on top of the chart.

either the music play catchy or sad,u cant do anything.

just dance and make it happening.

make it loud and people will remember.

**emotionally unstable these few weeks.

help me by make me laugh cos laughter is the best medicine.

xOxO

<3

tired of drama

Dear drama-king,

If i want to give any excuses to u, i will and i can but i wont and i will never cos i know that it is hard for us to get our own sweet time so i dont wanna waste it. since u dont know how to appreciate my efforts by make a lil scarifices to spend the golden time together,i think im not going to ask u more than that ...anymore..If u're sick or tired,we can sit for a couple cups of coffee and just talking to each other..but its ok since i dont have the heart to ask u again.

Why do on Earth men are fcuking hard to understand women? Women dont take NO as the answers. Women hate excuses. Whatever it is,it still an excuses. Women dont feel secured if their loved ones are not around. Women wouldnt feel complete without your love,care and attentions. Women are definitely in mess without you yet totally screwed up with... you. Women are superheroes. Women are fragile - handle them with extra care...

Maybe im the one who get things seriously or maybe im the one who too emotional. But i dont play things such these. Sometimes im not be able but i make an effort. U? u always available but its just u.Its u that one who want to make it happen or not. Not because of your jobs,your limited times or what so ever. If u really want me, im sure u'll never create any excuses, u'll never let me down, u'll find a time for me. bukan dengan menyalahakan i balik if i dont have time for u cos u know my conditions. whenever i have the time, u also should.

Sometimes i maybe mean but it is all because of you! U always complained that i dont understand u, actually u're the one who make me dont understand u. I DO understand u clearly. Do u really understand me? my feelings? I bet u dont cos i never really showed. I always scold u but i never showed u! If u're already sick of me, just tell me dont give excuses. I can take criticism but i cant take excuses. I dont know how many times must i tell u this. But u're seems so hard to understand. I've tried to be a better person each day. How bout u?

I know u've changed, i know u're lil bit diff than before but i never tell. I can feel it. It clearly, obviously shown. It is okay to cry but not too much for the same reason.

  See ya when i see ya..
  if there's a will, there's a way...think!!!!
  oh god!!

  xOxO 

kill me with these shoes

  

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

these shoes are the real killer

shoes are my deeply truly passion. i cant resist, i cant refused.

buy me one and i'll be happy all day long.

xOxO

time and space

why does every moment have to be so hard?

of all the things i felt but i never really showed.

maybe you're right.

maybe im wrong.

here, im giving u the time and space that u're asking for.

xOxO

live life as it is

live.love.laugh

live - i live my life to the fullest. the obstacles arent going to stop me. i never regrets for things had happened. things happen for a reason. there must be light at the end of every tunnel that i'll be going in. there must be sun shines after the rain. there must be a kind-naive heart behind evil face. there must be a sweet-innocent smile after sorrow.

love - i never stop loving people around me. love helps me alot to face the obstacles. love also give me the strenght that i always needed. we need more love in this whole wide world. sometimes,love may stop us for not doing something wrong. it is impossible to live the life without true,sincere love. love helps us grow to be a better person.

laugh - i love to laugh. laugh helps me to ease the pain,the tense and the pressure. lotsa laugh will help me to look younger and freshier. laughter is the best medicine,aint it? truly i need more laughs,smiles,jokes and happy faces. (im grinning from ear to ear. ok. stop it,gedik)

lets laugh more together in order to love and living these awesome lifes. <3

peace,y'all


xOxO

love/lust

i love u.

enough said.

thats all u have to know.

everything else doesnt matter.
i dont mind to wait till 10 years pun.

love is free.

dont turn it into a mess.

dont make it too complicated.

dont try to end up without knowing why.

i love u not your money.

love me,spend times with me.

love me,listen to me whining.

love me,always be there for me.

love me,please keep ur promises.

love me,put trust on me.

love me,dont ever questioning my love towards u.

dont say that i dont understand u.
i know how u feel.
i exactly know how u feel.
i know it very well.
but,i can do nothing.
dont judge me by my actions.
u can count on my words.
if god's willing,then it will goes on.

i love u with all my heart.

xOxO

new me?

happy new year, everyone.

actually today is the 3rd day of year 2010.

new year has come yet i dont feel any changes.

resolutions?

i never had one.

its quite embarrassing when every year u never fail to have ur own determinations or resolutions but u never succeed to fulfill one.

i dont think im proud to have one but fail to accomplished.

so, its better for me not to have one and just pray for the good in years/days ahead.

im maybe sounds stupid/conservative but i'll never regret.

happy new year and may 2010 brings all of us more joy, happiness and luck.

xOxO